I may have had you for a long time. Never completely though. At this point, I don’t think I ever will.
I have very few people I can consider good friends. I don’t know how to connect with people or open up to someone.
I’m not happy with them right now because most all of these people, my good friends, have made what I consider bad decisions in their lives. I realize that we’re all young and trying to have fun, and maybe I’m uptight. I just can’t help but think for the future and the life that I want for myself. I don’t see how someone else can not think about that. I don’t know how people go through life without ambition, motivation or the drive to make something better out of themselves.
I’m so disappointed.
but maybe I’m just getting old :(
whenever I’m upset, angry, sad, disappointed, or any emotion that I feel is negative, my automatic instict is to go to Taco Bell and get food. Regardless, of how long it’s been since I ate, or how much, or how full I am.
This needs to change!
I miss you so.
I’ve been so busy with school, and work I barely have time for sleep. :(
On another note, I’ve been thinking I’m ready for something new. I need a new guy to sweep me off my feet, or a new friend to experience new things together. I’m so sick of my boring ass life. :(
since school started I don’t have time to be on here anymore :( it’s so sad.